Lost in Life?

Why Lost in Life?  I chose this title because I want to become “lost” in life.  I want to stop obsessing and planning and just live.  My whole life, I have been focused on the “finish line”.  For as far back as I can remember, I have always been dreaming of how great life will be in the future.  I wasn’t a huge fan of High School and I can remember then dreaming of how great college life would be.  All that freedom.  Create you own class schedule.  Sleep in and party all night!  Boy, was I wrong! 
Life only became more difficult in college.  Working 40 hours a week, trying to pay my bills, and attempting to maintain good grades to keep my scholarship.  College was definitely not the fun, laid-back joyride I had envisioned.
However, I sucked it up and kept working towards my degree (not without a few bumps in the road).  My focus became the joy of life after college.  No longer having to juggle work and school.  I would get my degree and make the big bucks!  Just a few more years and I would be living the “good” life!
I think you probably get the idea.  The “good life” never showed up.  Unfortunately, I did not wake up one morning and think, “Yes!  This is it!  Life is amazing!”  Don’t get me wrong.  I have definitely had amazing days and amazing moments.  But I have never really slowed down long enough to live that life I have been dreaming of.  A life full of contentment, where I just go through my day enjoying each moment. 
Unfortunately, I have never really reached my “finish line” either.  I now realize that I will never complete the race because I keep moving the finish line.  I keep extending the race. Not intentionally, it just somehow happens.  As the end approaches, I am never satisfied.  The “good life” hasn’t arrived so I keep going.  I keep setting goals, finding new projects, creating a new path.
However, today I am changing this.  I’m going to stop planning.  Stop focusing on the future.  Stop racing towards a goal!  I am going to redefine my life.
How?  Well, first I’m going to try and enjoy each moment.  That means when I take my dogs for a walk, I will not spend the time making a mental list of things I need to get done.  Instead, I will look around at the world.  I will just enjoy each moment for what it is . . . A chance to be outdoors enjoying my dogs, the sun, the world! 
I realize this sounds easy but I know it will not be (at least not for me).  In fact, this may be one of the most difficult things I do in life.  However, I think it will be the best thing I ever do and definitely the most rewarding! 
I hope you will come along for the ride while I get Lost in Life.  I would love to hear your suggestions and welcome any guidance you may have for me!  I have created this blog as a way for me to try and work through the challenges I may face, but also as a place where I am accountable.  Hopefully, this will keep me focused on my task help me to continue on my path and not revert back to old habits! 
Thanks for stopping by!

Tess